For those of us who are just now making our New Year's resolutions simply because we were expecting a little bit of closure before moving on to the next year..
I want you to know that it's okay.
It's okay to be in process, to be dreaming of change, to realize that your present happens to be far from perfect.. to have just crossed the finish line after a long journey full of perseverance [or lack thereof] only to find yourself packing up for another one.
Because the truth is.. we are all in process.
And sometimes this 'process' looks different for you at different stages of your life - comforting yet discomforting, I know. And quite frankly, your process always looks different for you than it does for others.
But don't let it ruin your 'now'. Because just as easily as this 'in-between' came upon you.. it will soon be gone.
You will soon begin to see the ways in which God is leading you - and it might not be in the present tense.. rather, you may only see this leadership in hindsight. But this place has been Designed for you. It is at this time through these circumstances that our good Father has chosen to mold you.
And maybe.. at the root of all of these feelings of uncertainty and imperfection is just that: a yearning to be made into something Glory-filled.
So fear not, friend. Because while waiting periods can be far from pleasant with their restlessness, you are being made into something beautiful.
We are not broken beyond repair.
We are not marked by our failures.
We are not our past mistakes in present tense.
We are not to be looked down upon for being in process.
B r e a k t h r o u g h is often just around the corner.
And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint.. for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen our courage and faint.
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
--Rainer Maria Rilke