And moving on . . .
This morning I went to a different church than I usually go to when I'm home. I'd been wanting to try it out for a while now, so I finally did today. This morning the preacher quoted Simone Weil (some philosopher dude):
"Every sin is an attempt to fly from emptiness."
So sin means to miss the mark right? An offense against moral law.. an immoral act. Take your pick.
So I started thinking about it.. SO true. I never thought about sin that way. I thought about sin as rebellion. I thought about it as a trait of the imperfect.
but never did I ever think about it this way.
So, let's do a little experiment. I'm going to pick a few sins that I constantly engage in:
1. gluttony: when I overeat (specifically chocolate covered raisins and/or Dove dark chocolate after a long week), I am legitimately hoping the freaking candy will soothe me. I overeat chocolate.. because I feel empty. Not my stomach - myself in general.
2. gossip: when I gossip, I am intentionally putting someone else down in order to make myself feel better.. because I feel empty.
3. worry: when I worry, I am not believing that my God is strong enough to lead me through my circumstances. If I were satisfied, I wouldn't worry. But I worry.. because I feel empty.
Funny how that works out. Mr. Weil, you seem like a very wise man.